Jake was my first, my first everything. The first boy I ever loved, the first time I felt loved, the first time I felt true heart break. We were best friends first. He introduced me to Beck and told me the song “Bubble Toes” by Jack Johnson made him think of me. I now think of him every time I hear that song. Our souls connected in a way that was almost too much to bear at that age. We would talk until the sun came up and spend the whole next day together. He was the most beautiful and gentle soul. We would reconnect as the years went by, but it never felt like enough. I have so much still to say and I hope he knows how loved he was. Jake shaped the person I am. He empowered me to be my most authentic self by seeing past all the bull and seeing my soul. I can still hear his laugh, feel his hand in mine, and smell the joop he always wore. I’ll cherish the memories of his reassuring hugs, making me feel safe and special. I hope he is finally feeling peace. I hope he knows that he touched so many people and realizes how special he truly is. I have never met anyone like Jake and I know I never will. I love you Jake Burrill. I have always carried a piece of you in my heart and always will. I kept all your letters. It’s not much but it’s something I can hold on to. This world didn’t deserve you.